Life in the Bean

Hello readers,

Welcome to day two of my life here living on the Wentworth campus. I have been through such a whirlwind of emotions these past few days. I am so so so excited to be here.. and to finally be at college! But, I am super sad and I miss my family, friends, boyfriend and pets so much! I've been having an inner battle as to whether or not I should have headed up north to Keene or UVM or something. But I think I'll be happy here.. or at least I hope. Corey's coming tomorrow and I'm so relieved he'll be here. It'll be like a little piece of home here with me. And we can have sleep overs--- yes! I can't wait for Columbus day weekend to come.. so I can come home and relax. But something tells me that weekends are going to seem a whole lot shorter now.

xoxo,
Taryn

New year, new life.

Hello readers,


    It has been quite some time since the last time I have posted and a lot of things have changed since then. I am still with Corey, in love, happy and going strong. Although the distance was very difficult, it was all worth it in the end. Tomorrow will be my last day here in CT for a while. I'm moving up to Boston where I am attending Wentworth Institute of Technology for Interior Design- yes.. I did it after all! This past year has been very stressful to say the least; but this year is looking bright. I got into the college of my dreams and I'm living 2.5 seconds next to good old Mr. Northeastern, because ironically enough, Wentworth are next door neighbors. It can't get much better than that! I'm both nervous and very excited, I've always pictured this time in my life while I was growing up, so it's so very strange actually living it now. I'm sad to leave my family and pets. I'm blessed to have such a tight nit family, but luckily I'm only an hour and a half away from my house.


       But on to blogging news! I did change the title to my blog... again. Since Mr. Northeastern is right next door, I figure I can just go walk over and say hello if I need to. So I wanted to shift gears on to more of topics that have to do with my life, my future career and my interests. Since I'm majoring in Interior Design I'll make sure to post my work as well as inspiration I find along the way. I've also become very fond of living a healthy life style; which includes: healthy eating, jogging, yoga and even the decompressing meditation if I can fit it in. Along with the healthy living, I've continued to improve my much loved cooking and baking. So you may also notice recipes and other food inspiration I find.


I hope you all enjoy the changes and I will be posting much for frequently throughout my weeks up at school


Love,
   Taryn

Dear Corey # 11

Dear Corey,

 

It's been about five months now. This distance is starting to become the norm and I don't know how it makes me feel. We're still together... which is great, but there's still many a few months left to go. I loved winter break with you as well as all of the weekends that you came down to visit me and I went up to see you. There's nothing better than going to sleep in your arms and waking up to you nuzzled in the crook of my neck. I miss you.. I can't wait for this distance to end! I thought by now I would know exactly where I'd be going this year. But unfortunately my dreams of Emerson have to be put on hold. 

So now I'm going to either end up at Suffolk University, Wentworth University, Wheelock College or Fisher College. I refuse to give up on my dreams, not only for me.. but for us. I want to transfer to Emerson and become a famous Book Editor and Publisher for a big company like Random House. I want to be able to make a good life for us and to be healthy, happy and financially stable. One of the only things that is getting me through these hard times are our dreams of the future and how happy we're going to be. I love when you talk about marriage and having our two little girls. I love picking out baby names with you too. It's the future that gives me hope for us.

  Now that it's 2011, the year where my whole life and one chapter will close and another will open, I hope for nothing but good things for us. We're doing very well for our unfortunate circumstances, but I appreciate everything you do to fix negative situation. I know we'll make it... 

I love you & I miss you.

Love Always,

Taryn

Dear Corey # 10

Dear Corey,
   I can't believe that it's already October and you've already been gone for a month. It's wonderful and sad at the same time. It is becoming easier everyday.. I'm beginning to get used to you not being around. (As much as I don't like it) The days are getting shorter and the temperatures are beginning to get a bit chiller. It seems so weird  to think that we really didn't know each other at this time last year.

I feel like I've known you all my life. I don't think that I have ever felt so close and connected to someone before. Of course both have us have been in longer relationships before, but there's just something about you that I feel like everything just makes sense.. like there's no other answers I should be looking for. I believe what you tell me because I know that you would never do anything to hurt me. As we are approaching our one year anniversary next month on the 17th, I started to realize how lucky I really am.

You are nothing short of amazing. You are always trying to make me smile and make me happy even in the hardest of times. You always try to be there for me, even when you physically can't.. I appreciate everything that you do. I've never experienced someone like you and I don't think I ever will. You are one of a kind and I never want to let that go. You have made this indecisive girl know exactly what she wants in life. Not only just wanting to be with you forever.. but what I want to do as a career and how I want to be as a person when I get older. You have helped me be stronger and happier. I have people from my past tell me that seeing me with you is the happiest they've ever seen me in my entire life so far.(I think that says something) This time apart from you is showing me how much I want to be with you and how amazing it's going to be when it's just us.. together. 

I love you so much honey bunny, xoxo

Love always,

Taryn 

Dear Corey # 9

Dear Corey,
  It's been four days since I left you up at Northeastern. I know it hasn't been all that long but I have still have my ups and my downs. I'm so frustrated and sad that you're not here but I still try my best to be positive. I try to think about all the great memories we've shared.. like right now I'm looking at the yellow leaf you found for me that is in the shape of a heart. I just want it to be September 25th already.. I want to be there in your arms... there in your bed cuddling with you and there just looking into your eyes and kissing you. I miss your warm hugs and your tender words and the way you make me feel so safe and loved. I know you love me and you better know I love you. It's just really hard. I always wonder if your thinking about me.. or if you ever feel weak sometimes like I do. Or am I just feeling this way alone? I want to be in love with you forever and I hope you do too. Thinking these thoughts give me hope. I want a forever with you and I'll do whatever it takes to make that happen.

I'm fighting for you boo boo & I love you very much

Love always,
Taryn xoxoxoxo

Dear Corey # 8

Dear Corey,
   This is this first day.. with me living without you. I must confess, I feel very lost and lonely. I don't know what to do.. I don't know what to think.. I don't want to eat.. I don't want to do anything. I hope you're having fun up in Boston.. I really do. Unfortunately for me in CT... I just need a few days to decompress. I miss you like crazy.. and it hasn't even been twenty four hours. I know we'll make it.. I have no doubt.. but without your physical presents here with me.. it just feels like someone ripped my heart right out of my chest. I love you so very much... and I cannot wait to reunite with you in twenty days... which feels like a life time.

I'm trying to stay strong for you boo boo bear...

I love you always,
Taryn xoxoxoxo

Dear Corey #7

Dear Corey,
  That day I've been dreading for so long has finally arrived. Today is September third.... my last night with you for a long while. As much as it is hard for me, I'm also comforted in knowing that everything is going to turn out okay for us. I know I'm with you right now.. as you're reading this over my shoulder. But I just want to let you know how much I truly am in love with you and every second I am away from you, I will be thinking of you. You mean everything to me and I am the luckiest girl in the world to have you. When I'm feeling sad and lonely I will think about all the great memories that we have shared already and all the amazing times that have yet to come. I love you with all my heart and promise to stay strong for you


I love you always,
Taryn