Its funny how life works.

I can tell you that this past weekend has been anything but happy. I think I was in tears at least 90% of the time. It's so hard to be so in love with someone who supposedly doesn't have the same feelings back for you. I am head over heels in love with Kenny & have been for the 2 & 1/2 years that we have, well were together. To be honest I don't see myself ever stopping loving him. It's the one sided love, the slow killing that really gets me. Everyday I hope that he will have an epiphany and realize he was meant to be with me in the first place. I've gone through my guys and even though I am still at a young age, you can fall in love at any age. Anyone who tries to tell you anything different is a fool. I have never felt this way in my life, feeling incomplete without him around. I guess that's why they call the people you love your "other half". It's just an empty feeling that you can't replace with anything else but them. Now I'm sure people can confuse my feelings with infatuation or obsession. I would have to disagree, although at times it feels like my misery could be unhealthy I know its just all the feelings I have towards him. It was not even two weeks ago that he was feeling the same and begging me back. Its strange how the tables have now turned. But I want this, I want him, my rock, my happiness again.

My advice for all you love sick one sided lovers out there; is that every cloud has its silver lining. And I know its hard going through all those rain storms and feeling like all that you will ever see is clouds of grey. But I promise you even if this relationship that you are charishing so much right now doesn't work out, you won't be alone. There are millions of fish out in that giant sea of possiblities. Its going to be hard, really hard. Wanting something you know is only a reach away but yet feels like trillions of miles away. But that's where fate comes into play and it will guide you in the direction that is best for your life and how it was meant to be lived. Everyones life is like a story or a fairytail, you may think that you choose your own path, but I feel like we're all being guided. Everything happens for a reason, right? So follow your heart but be smart and if you know it won't happen don't torture yourself, be you for a little bit, find things you like to do things that make you happy. Be confident find yourself, you can't truely love another unless you learn to love yourself. Damn I wish I could take my own advice. lol

xoxo- Taryn